But it all boils down to one quotable phrase - "If you love something, give it away."

Hello.

I had a test this morning in my Earth Science class, twas fun.  I was up pretty late studying/Hon'ing so I'm glad I was able to muster the strength to get up and go to class.  I also managed to make a date with a girl wed. night at Fair Trade coffee on state, which is pretty funny considering I wasn't really out to get a date and am really not terribly thrilled with doing so, but hey, we'll see how it goes down.

Right now I'm about to do laundry, and then probably play a bunch of SC/Hon, as I havne't been playing too much of either lately and I really want to.  I also have to write an article soon so I can get more $$$. xD

Ur-ur-urgency, oh man I feel it in the street.

Hi!

I managed to get to the midnight prerelease at NW games yesterday night, which was about as fun as I could imagine.  2-2 record (pretty average) but it will definitely very fun.  I'm excited by the possibility of playing this format in the future, as it seems quite good for limited PTQs. I've also been working on my deck for people to play at the PT (if I end up being able to go, the financial aid offices are being real bastards about it) and I think its just the best deck in the format.  Theres only 1 deck I lose to and I think after board I have really good chances.

anyway, enough talking about things people don't care about - my life is still about as boring as ever.  I think I might have a paper due thursday or tuesday..or a test.  Yea I'm not sure, we need to look that one up ^^

My last.fm is pretty awesome, it has the perfect scope of music on it I live it.  My top8 is like a microcosm of my musical personality in the perfect way - LOVE.

It's Katie's birthday tomorrow, and we're going to see a lovely show at the High Noon Saloon with the Weakerthans and Rock Plaza Central, being indie rocks!

Comment allez-vous ce soir? Je suis comme ci comme ça - Yes, a penguin taught me French back in Antarctica.

Hello blog.

Class was relatively fun yesterday. It was a long lecture in Earth Science that was largely about stuff I learned much earlier in my schooling career - plate tectonics. Either way, it was fun gleefully putting input in in class while really, already knowing all the answers. It's the easy way to get credit, especially if you know you won't sound stupid answering the teacher's questions. There were some short movie clips, some joking, and that was that.

Afterwards Molly, Ross, and myself were to hang out (I believe thats what she said) but I couldn't really locate either of them, and after about 20 minutes of just sleezing around MATC I ran into a girl from my summer school class two years prior - Ashley. Ashley and I are really from two completely different walks of life. She, an estranged girl who has bounced from group home to group home all throughout her high school life, and then into MATC to become a mechanic, of all things. She explained to me in a sullen tone that she has carpel tunnel syndrome, and thinks it would be unrealistic of her to pursue mechanic related stuff with that condition, so she hopes to get into UW Madison to become an engineer to DESIGN stuff like cars, engines, etc. All and all we had some pretty lengthy discussions about foreign countries, culture shock, weird things we've heard about Japan, Germany, etc.

So afterwards I went home and played a ton of a video game called HoN, which I have been jamming a lot of these days (its actually really fun, for how little skill it takes compared to other games I like such as Starcraft, etc) and then basically waited around for 4:30, when I had to wake Madison up to go to work, and go to my evening class - History of Sub-Saharan Africa. The class went well, Lacy (our teacher) split us up into groups and we had discussion about colonial contact in west Africa, and why it happened. I think it's funny how much people complain about American globalism, when the English/Porteguise/French/Etc were literally complete assholes to the entirety of the west African people, and basically just took their land and settled it while mining gold from them. O_O

Anyway, after all of that I went home and played more irrelavent video games. I sort of wish I got invited to do things with Madison/Nicole/Kalen. But the phone never rings, so I don't impose. If they wanted me to come along they'd ask, and I can understand why Nicole/Kalen wouldn't really want my company, I'm not exactly the party type - though I still like hanging out

Have a good one, readers.

-John

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it is 1am, and I feel quite strange.

I feel like I can't seem to handle my interactions with others with any finesse whatsoever, and really, all I can do is make things worse when I think to myself that I am a rational and intelligent person, though I am starting to have doubts about all of it.

Jasper sent me a relatively aggressive facebook message, and I replied with a relatively aggressive replay, then he was a tad more aggressive, then I just sort of stared at my computer wondering what to say. Why do I even care? I feel like I'm so above all of this, but yet drawn into the bullshit for no reason at all. I think I'm just quitting magic at this point. I tried talking to Erykka about what to do, but I clearly just irritated her (as she blocked me -.-) so here I am, out a solid hobby and a decent friend. But hey, things could be worse eh? I really don't know where I actually went wrong with all of it, maybe its just the random homewrecker/girlfriend stealing catching up with me, and its exactly what I deserve. I kind of wish I could be at least happy that now I don't have anything to worry about, now that there is a definitive close to all of this, but I find it difficult to do so. I always hope for things to end on happier terms, but as humans we are incapable.

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Origami

I took your arms, and folded them back

by the elbows, snapping them back into

place parallel to her body. I pushed them

until your socket had snapped loose, and like wings

I tucked it behind your back.

Your legs were next. I'd make you my perfect

cardboard cut out crane, your legs snapped back

like that gorgeous bird.

I'd tell you to lie still as I worked,

my fingers rough with paper cuts - those tiny

remembrances of your resistance.

You tried to take flight, but you were

bound by the legs by to the Gampi tree I had

planted in my garden.

From time to time when I am feeling troubled, I will unfold all these letters, from old friends and lovers~

Wow, it is raining so unreal hard out. I woke up at 8am to get ready for school, looked outside and went "Fuck no" and went back to bed xD

The last couple days have been pretty devoid of writing unfortunately, I really want to jump on that as soon as possible.

I've been doing a lot of Facebook chat with an old friend from highschool (Katie Lee) and thats been really fun. She seems a lot different than last I remember her, and is engaged (though it seems quite unhappily) to some guy I know nothing about. She seems to be doing OK though, not well, not bad, just OK. =P We have plans to meet up and hang out for a while, which should be awesome, I've always wanted to have one of those long lost friend reunion type things go down =D

I got 15$ for fixing Katies parents computer. Whoo. xD

-John